Why i am still awake, i am not sure, but i can only lay and reflect on a long day’s series of events. Though none major, none particularly unimportant.
I find that whenever i listen to whomever i’m conversing with, i think of things to respond with, my answer constantly changing slightly as they continue to make specific sounds using their vocal cords which my brain interprets as ideas and information.. I tend to not only put together a reply with which to answer with, but i weigh that option against others with varying goals. I then decide which option scores best among several variables such as Harm, Expense, Time, Emotion, Task, Audience, Connotation, Humor, Behavior, Setting, Outcome, and so on- as to reach a desired outcome all the while studying the environment around me and ease-dropping on the conversation next to us. As a gemini, sometimes ‘us’ can describe my dual personalities.
Working at my new job and restructuring my life. Expect more sketches soon after i get into a consistent routine.
Imagine a life with an inverted sleeping schedule. One in which you do not see the sun, but instead wake up to sunset, and eat lunch under the moon. A life where most everyone around you is asleep and few stores open for business. Streets empty and with quiet winds, you can step outside into a world of your own. No texts, no calls. Just your physical, mental and the moon. This is the life I’ve grown too accustomed to. Waking up well into the PM, and finally sleeping late into the AM is not how one is supposed to function, but can one? I’m not yet sure i want to find out. I am still in process of correcting this state, but it is an interesting way of existing in this routine we call life.
With too much on my mind, the thought of sleep at 6am can only put me back in this vicious cycle of terrible sleeping patterns. I tried laying in bed but ended up wondering what i used to wonder about before sleeping. Now and days its projects i’m working on, friends i haven’t seen, and when my knee will be back to normal, as it has been a month since injuring it. Instead of sleep, i shall use this time to wish i had food as it has been like 9 hours since my last meal and stay awake as long as possible, at least 16 more hours. i’m setting a challenge for myself to use this time to create sketches for future projects. One every hour until i fall asleep.